Woooahh

I’ve had a great week and great weekend.

It’s interesting how the weather can change your mood. Beautiful sunny days, left me in a better mood. 

All week, I have been commuting to London. I have been getting up at around 6am, and getting home between 7pm-9pm depending on when southern rail decide to give me a train. 

Although I have had a hetic week, I have had extra reading time. I Managed to finish Reading The Missing by C L Taylor. I also had time to buy The Escape by C L Taylor and read it by Sunday. It was really refreshing spending my time reading, rather then somthing mind numbing like scrolling in Facebook.

This week also got me thinking about allocating myself more time to myself. I feel it’s really important to allocated extra time to a hobby for my mental health. I decided I would like to get back into photography. My camera was charged and memory card was inserted by Saturday.

This weekend has been lovely. Friday, was more of a dinner, glass of wine and bed. Until my boyfriend remembered we were supposed to be at a party, we quickly went there for one but honestly thought I was going to fall asleep after my loooooong week. 

Saturday morning, I did some spring cleaning before getting ready to go for a picnic with my best friends and our boyfriends. I met them in Stanmer park, where we ate food, drunk cider and even played rounders. When I arrived home I sat in the garden with my mum and dad soaking up the last of the sun.

Sunday, we took Tony’s younger niece to the park for a picnic. I know two in one week, spoiling myself! After the picnic we stayed at his aunties in the Garden, which escalated to BBQ and drinks.

To wind down from the weekend, I had a long soak in the bath with a glass of wine and read the last chapter of my book. 

The Escape by C L Taylor

Another fabulous book by CL Taylor. After feel very satisfied after reading the Missing by miss Taylor, I went on to buying The Escape. Again, I was so indulged I read it within three days ( even though i was commuting to London all week) 

This story is about a mother who suffers with agoraphobia. Her and her daughter have been threatened. She feels she has no choice but to keep running.
Like her other books, there are lots of characters introduced and you are never sure who to trust. I honestly didn’t know who to trust and when the ending plot was reviled I was shocked. I had some stages where I doubted certain characters and then next I would love them again. 
I have noticed the trend in C L Taylor’s book of the interest of phycology and this is an exciting element. A book written in third person, with someone who is having mental health issues takes you on a brand new type of journey. The book is very well written, and really allows you take on this persons character.  
The daughter is a lovable character, and I was hoping through your the book she would be safe.
This character takes you on an emotional journey of hope, grief and disappointment. 
The book is set in a number of places including Ireland. I loved the little touches, like she was eating “tayto crisps” for me this was something to relate too. 
I felt I was intrigued from the first page to the very last. I felt eager to understand why this was happening to them and the ending was very interesting. 
Once again, I am looking forward to reading her next book.  

The Missing by C.L Taylor

I have read plenty of crime books and plenty of stories about people going missing. They all are generally a guessing a game, who was the murderer? Did someone kidnap the child? Did they just run away? Those are the typical questions I ask myself.

This book has you asking more. Everyone becomes a suspect in the eye of controlling mum.
Being written in third person, allows you to take on the persona of mum. The constant of mention of memories, allow you to relate to all the characters and builds a good foundation of the background. You feel how chaotic mums life is, and how her worries are adding to her stress.
This book covers a aspect of social media and how this can effect teenagers life. It is a aspect that teenagers can perhaps relate to and a aspect that adults will be interested in. It is a style that that I have not until now read in a crime thriller.

There are also other elements of lies, cheat, rebelling and manipulation.

This book was one I could not put down. I went to work wondering why certain people had lied to poor mum, who was just trying find her son.

The last few chapters had me really feeling that the chaos is peaking, i felt like mum like I couldn’t take anymore. Then, bam a massive twisted ended.

I promise you won’t be disappointed.

I recommend this book highly, 5/5. I even tweeted the CL Taylor to thank her for such a great read. I was so looking forward to Reading her next book, that I finished The Missing this morning and I’ve already bought another of her books called “The escape” and reading it on my way home. 

Traveling with your Partner

Since being back, I have been asked lots of time weather I found it difficult to travel with my boyfriend.

Before, I left for Thailand in January I must admit this was somthing that had crossed my mind. We do not argue a lot but we argue over the little things like couples do. 

Upon arriving in Thailand, we were tired from all the traveling and where grouchy because we were confused by the arrival card forms. I could sense that my boyfriend was getting annoyed and was asking me questions as if it was my fault. I thought oh no here we go. 

The truth is, that was about as much as we argued in Thailand. 

The everyday life of traveling around Thailand, takes away so many of the stresses back home. Speed of life, is not full on anymore it’s medium. You don’t have to rush home from work too cook dinner, before going to bed and starting again. There was nothing to argue about.
If anything traveling made our relationship stronger. I now like to allocate us time together, to just be us and spend time together.

For me I was worried about wearing no make up all the time. Within the first week, I was going out without make up on and this allowed me confidence to grow. The best thing was my boyfriend every other day, kept telling me how beautiful I look. He told me how he noticed more freckles surfacing and how lovely and refreshed I looked. This really helped with my confidence and helped me feel comfortable in my own skin. 

Sometimes, we found it harder to make friend as a couple, rather then a solo back packer. We found ourself  mainly making friend with already formed groups or other couples. I feel that solo backpacker do not want to feel third wheely. Which I understand as there are some cringey couples out there, but I think we are okay ha ha.

We had lots of drunken night out, long trecks and relaxing days. The trip  made me realise I wasn’t just traveling with my boyfriend, I was traveling with my best friend.

Now that we are home, I find myself receiving text messages saying ” I love you beautiful, you are my best friend”. Which I admit is cringey but it does make me realise how good our relationship is.

Cannot wait for our next adventure. 

Why hate it before you try it 

A lot of people don’t like sushi.

when I ask why most people say because they don’t like fish. Did you know that sushi means ” on a bed of rice” 

Sushi does not necessarily mean you would put anything fishy on it. They do vegetable sushi, chicken sushi, curry sushi. 

I often wonder what goes on in somebody’s head, when they say they do not like something, before they have tried.

My boyfriend will not try gherkins or olives because they are green. When someone offers them to him, he says he dosent like them. How does he know if he hasn’t try them.

When I was younger I used to make my mind up, if I didn’t like somthing before trying it. My dad would make me try it, I would chew it and swallow quickl, then agree that I defiantly didn’t like it. My dad said how would you know, you made up your mind before you ate it.

I believe this method of thinking, is also how we think about life. 

Have you ever gone to Thorpe park? Looked at the scariest ride and thought nope I won’t like that. Then the person you are with keeps pestering you and you end up going on it due to peer pressure. Then you hate yourself for giving in as you are being strapped up, preparing yourself to have an enjoyable experience. The ride goes and your still panicking as it head to the scariest part, and once you have done it you laugh. You laugh because you are relived, as it wasn’t as scary as you expected. You laugh because you actually had fun and enjoyed it. You laugh because you have just experience such a contract of judging and hating the experience before doing it, and actually loving and having fun during the experience. 

If you can change your mind set of hating before you try, you will find life more enjoyable. The food that you hate before trying, actually may be somthing you end up having in your daily diet. That ride at Thorpe park that you would hate to go on, may be the reason you want to go again. 

If you start saying yes to trying new things, your life will be open to so many new aspects. It may take you traveling, it may take you sky diving and I promise you it will open your eyes. 

Hide and seek by M J Arlidge 

Hide and seek by Mj Arlidge is about a cop who is currently in prison awaiting trial for the murder of three people. She aims to be on her best behaviour and avoid conflict with other inmates and to make it her trail. This become increasingly difficult as murders begin to happen, and the saying curiosity killed that cat comes to mind. She can’t keep herself away from being a cop and what to find out what happens. 

The book is slow to get into at the beginning and I personally found it a little difficult to follow. The book is written in third person, each chapter being 3-4 pages and each chapter flicking from character to character. Once you’ve got a quarter the way through the book, you feel that you almost know everyone but you really don’t know any of them until the end.

The details of the murders are chilling and again very unexpected. When I read books I like to imagine how they would pan out in a movie and it would defiantly be a 18+ movie.

This is a great book if you like guess the murderer type books. It will keep you wondering through out, plenty of cliff hangers. You find yourself going about your daily life and trying to clue together who you think the murdere is. I had around four suspects in my own head, and it wasn’t any of them. 

Defiantly reccomend. 

Backpacking – what to bring and what not to bring 

If your going ok your first backpacking adventure, like many you will be wondering what to bring. You don’t want to bring to much and be carrying a heavy bag around, but at the same time you need certain things to survive. 

Ladies, hair dryers and hair straighteners are a no no. Your hair will dry within 20 mins of being outside, embrace nature drying your hair it’s all part of traveling. If you straighten or dry your hair in the heat, you will be damaging your hair big time. The biggest bonus of not brining these is it’s a lot of weight taken off your back. Plus my hair grew loads and feels healthier. You will however need lots of hair bands, I was forever wearing one and keeping one on my wrist. I went with 30 and came back with 3.

Make up was the hardest decision for me, as I’m the time of girl you hug and end up will my make up on your shirt. Travelling I took, two lots of BB cream and lipgloss both with additional suncream in them. Truth is, after two weeks I was way to tanned for my BB cream and my skin felt so healthy anyway I didn’t want to wear it. When we went on night out hardly anyone wore make up, apart from young girls that where there for a Party weekend. 


Towels are a pain, not every hotel/hostel will provide you with towels. Plus you usually need your own towel for beaches or sitting beside the pool. We discovered microfibres towels, they roll up into a tiny sack. They try very quickly, if you poor water on them in the sun you can practically watch them dry. 


Two paid of shoes only! Flip flops and comfy walking shoes. I invested in sketchers which were super comfy, when we moved from each destination I put my flip flops in my bag and wore my comfy shoes. We also had walking boots ( light but grippy) which we kept in my boyfriend bag as his was much bigger. The walking boots where perfect for rainy days and going for hilly walks.

I originally packed one of shampoo, conditioner, toothpaste and body wash. We packed these items in a seperare see through bag, with all or cosmetics. Don’t forget sunceeam and mosquito spray. One bottle of sunceeam lasted us sixweeks. There are shops, most of the time you will find it fairly cheap to buy these items.

Only bring one book, because you can buy books out their, they have book exchange cafes and most hostels you will find someone you can exchange with. If you have a kindle then that is ideal.

The biggest question is how many clothes to bring. The awnser is now much. I brought with me 3 pairs of shorts, 3 strap tops, 3 dresses, 2 strap tops, and a mix of four bikinis that I could mix and match. It dosent seem a lots but once you have put your costemtics, your shoes and your clothes in your bag will be pretty full. Plus I’m thaialnd was found so many clothes and items we wanted to buy and put in our bags.

Don’t forget a water proof jacket, for when it rains. I always had mine attatched to the outside of my bag.

It dosent matter what you bring, at the end of the day you will have fun. Brining less stuff just means, you will moan less when you are moving about.